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I think I'm done

I'm done. I'm beyond tired beyond the pursuit beyond the struggle beyond anything really. A part of me is just... had given up trying to change my life since life won't even budge doesn't even care just a cold, lifeless indifference. Why even bother. How do I even overcome my fear of rejection that which is a false fantasy a fake silent assumption paralyzing me my whole life! How do I have a mindset plus how to embody a "nothing to lose" vibe attitude. I failed. Instead continuing riding the pity-party train on myself. I'll do this instead. Do nothing. Then let go. The nonsense, wasteful things, everything that doesn't serve me anymore. What can I do when life is a bigger asshole than you that's coercing you into one pointless, useless direction. You just let go man. Hope for the best. It's not the best option It's all I got!
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Nowhere

The more I push the more I'm stuck the universe is making me feel that fate and destiny are my enemies! It just puts me in a bad attitude of "why even bother?" Life, this existence this projection of reality is my enemy! I'm so tired of the senseless wrestles the pushbacks with life! I mean C'MON! Why this stupid senseless holographic projection we call reality is so cold, so cruel, so indifferent? Why did I do to piss it off? C'MON! Just a little help just a little nudge in the right direction maybe a little luck. That's all I ask for!
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The Simple Life

Ah! The simple life. Oh how I kinda miss the simple life. Simple ways of living free from stress and nothing to bring us down. The memories that we cherish when we were young and long for nostalgic foods, sweets, fruits and other delicacies. Life used to be so simple back in the day where we use to chit-chat and hang around our family and friends just to have a laugh. Oh how I long for those days Oh how I long for those days Oh how I long for those days those days... are so precious. More than you know. But the past... is nothing but a memory inside our minds nothing but imaginary now. So we must look forward create more and better memories as we can as our breathe is still in our lungs. So we must create future memories in the now in the now in the NOW!
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Challenges

Challenges There's always will be challenges. Problems, obstacles, complications conflicts, unintended consequences let them come. Don't be discouraged or makes yourselves small because there's an almost impossible task ahead of you. Have courage, steady your mind even in the midst of chaos. The universe always gives an opening, an opportunity for you to strike and overcome your challenges... whatever they may be. You are not sent here to fail even if it feels like failing is all you do. Do the thing over and over until the universe sees your intentions and hear your cries to send you aid. The universe will yield if only you had courage if only you persisted in a goal if only you had take an extra step you would've have had it all.
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So tired... again

So tired... so exhausted. I don't know what to think or what to do anymore. So many challenges, so many trials unending problems keep on popping up. I just wanna breathe need a breather need money to feel civilized again need a future a goal, a future to start living again. I don't know what the universe wants with me or its purpose with me. I need to figure out how to move forward not tied down by my past, my mistakes or regrets I just wanna live at least semblance of living.
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Why me

Why me why did this happen to me? I'm tired exhausted I can't think clearly. Life has not been kind to me my family and friends. This reality this timeline this world this situation just feels... wrong. Nothing feels right everything is in chaos, in disarray... like order never fits anymore. I just wanna rest but this cruel uncaring world won't let me.
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So spent

So spent I'm so spent I'm barely hanging on whatever energy remaining in me. Whatever happens happens. We will deal with it one challenge, one problem at a time. Don't even waste time on distractions on insignificant things. It's not worth wasting your attention, your energy! Do what you can! Press on! Come what may!
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