So tired... again

So tired... so exhausted.
I don't know what to think
or what to do anymore.

So many challenges, so many trials
unending problems keep on popping up.

I just wanna breathe
need a breather
need money to feel
civilized again
need a future
a goal, a future
to start living again.

I don't know what the universe
wants with me or its purpose
with me.

I need to figure out
how to move forward
not tied down by my past,
my mistakes or regrets
I just wanna live
at least semblance
of living.

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