Mirage of thoughts

Rumination won't let me be
trigger upon trigger upon
trigger thoughts leaving me
restless and exhausted 
trying to calm my mind down.

Only awareness and the present moment
can dissolve this erratic, irrational
nonsensical thoughts popping and
popping out of my mind.

Even that takes a lot of work
it doesn't feel like treatment or cure
just temporary relieving of dis-ease
inside my broken-ish mind.

My speculation that trauma had
caused my own OCD... that and
the world being crazy.

I would love a breather...
even if just for awhile.

This world... is not for the 
faint of heart.

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